18 weeks!

Since I posted earlier this week when we had our ultrasound, I don’t have much to update you on, but a few pics of my growing belly and my weekly update.  I have another ultrasound on Monday that my Mom is going to with me, and I get to see the baby again!  Hopefully he’s not on his belly again!

Keeps getting bigger!

Weekly Update

How far along? 18 weeks

Total weight gain. Still about 6 lbs

Symptoms? Stuffy nose, headaches, though not as frequent this week

Maternity clothes? Yes on pants, still wearing some pre-pregnancy shirts.

Cravings of the week? Still on a mandarin orange kick, but also Ben and Jerry’s Chocolate Fudge Brownie ice cream, and string cheese.

Sleep? Still going pretty well although I’ve had a couple weird and kind of bad dreams this past week : (

Best moment this week? Seeing our baby, and finding out what he is!

Belly button? Innie.

Movement? A few flutters here and there still nothing consistent….waiting patiently

Looking forward to? Getting more pictures of our baby, and my birthday celebration : )

Milestones? 18 weeks down, 22 to go!

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It’s a Boy!!

Today we are 17 weeks and 5 days pregnant!  We had our anatomy ultrasound this afternoon, and we have a very stubborn little BOY on our hands!  (Definitely his father’s son)  Baby Boy Brewton was laying on his tummy the whole time and did not want to show us the “goods” at all. We were able to get a lot of pictures of his spine and of his head, and some of his organs and after about 10 minutes he gave us a little peak of his parts, and he is for sure a boy!  The ultrasound tech took all sorts of measurements and let us know that the baby is about 7 oz which is right on track and I am measuring 17 weeks 6 days pregnant which is also right on! 

Of course I was nervous and anxious going into my appointment again, but they didn’t do my weight or my blood pressure this time so I don’t know what it was.  However, because the baby was on his belly the whole time the ultrasound tech wasn’t able to get all of the pictures/measurements she needed so I have to go back next Monday for another ultrasound.  (Oh Darn, I have to see the baby again!!!)  The ultrasound tech had a concern about the baby’s kidneys, so the Dr. checked the pictures and measurements and seemed to think the measurements of the organs were in the “normal” range but they want to check again and get some more pictures of the heart and other organs.  So……here I go getting nervous all over again!  I can’t wait for the day when I can be calm going into the Doctor’s office.  Hopefully everything checks out alright next week and Baby Brewton cooperates for us!!!  Either way, we’ve got lots of people praying for a healthy baby, and I’m excited to see him again!

My parents are coming into town this weekend to see Dan, my brother and I and to celebrate my birthday!  I haven’t seen them since Christmas and although that’s not long, I always love when they come down to visit and I’m looking forward to their visit!  Dan unfortunately has to leave town early Monday morning for work, and my repeat ultrasound is at 9 a.m. but my parents have agreed to stay through Monday so I have someone to go to my Doctor’s appointment with, and I’m very thankful for that.  
I will post another update later this week with my usual content, and keep you informed about my appointment next week! 

"Mrs. Brewton, Do you have a baby in your belly?"

Teaching has brought me a lot of things over the past several years, and I enjoy so much about it but one of my favorite things is the unique and innocent way the kids have of interpreting and understanding the world around them. I sent a card home with all of my students wishing them and their families a blessed new year and in my sign off I added “Baby Brewton” to our family. I wanted to let them know about our special news and hoped their parents would sort of take the lead in bringing up the whole baby thing. As I suspected most did but I wanted to discuss it with them as well. So the other day my co-teacher and I sat our kids down and told them that I had a baby growing in my belly and that it would be getting bigger And bigger over the next few months. Well immediately the excitement set in and the hands popped up. They wanted to share what they knew and ask questions and These were some of my favorites.

                                              

“Um Mrs. Brewton how did the baby get in your tummy?”
I answered, it just decided that my tummy was a good place for it to grow.
“When will your baby come out?” Not until June.
“How come it won’t come out right now?” Because it’s not finished growing
“How does it get out of your tummy?” the doctors will take it out
“my mom said they cut it out” yes sometimes they do
“I know that it comes out of your belly button” nope it just comes out of your belly
“I want to see your baby now” well I can’t show it to you now because it’s still in my tummy
At random times throughout the day. “um Mrs Brewton I think your baby is hungry you should feed it” it eats when I eat
“Mrs. Brewton how is your baby? Is it sleeping? Yes maybe. “well is it moving? It might be. I’ll let you know when i feel it move.

Our kids are a riot and I laugh a lot during the day at the things they say but my favorite is when they randomly come up to me, put their hands on my belly and their face really close and say “Hello Baby Brewton, I hope you’re doing good” it’s the sweetest thing and it brings a
smile to my face every time.
I can’t wait to be a Mom!

So here’s my weekly update!

How far along? 17 weeks

Total weight gain. Still about 6 lbs maybe 7

Symptoms? Stuffy nose, headaches, and a stretching feeling down the sides of and in my lower belly.

Maternity clothes? Yes on pants and some shirts though pre-pregnancy shirts are getting shorter and shorter.

Cravings of the week? Tuna salad and crackers, mandarin oranges and pickles

Sleep? Still going pretty well. Had a dream last night about our baby and saw a baby boy he had Dan’s dark eyelashes and bright blue eyes with light blonde kind of curly hair. I’ve now dreamt about a girl and a boy so who knows what it will be!

Best moment this week? Knowing we only have a few more days until we know what we’re having!

Belly button? Innie.

Movement? Don’t think so but still not sure

What I miss? Fitting into all of my clothes comfortably

Looking forward to? Beginning to pick out names when we know what we’re having!

Weekly wisdom? Nap whenever possible

Milestones? One week closer to meeting out baby!

16 Week Appointment

I had my 5th appointment on Wednesday January 12th.  It was just a check up so no ultrasound just weight, vitals, and checking my belly for the position of my uterus.  I met with a different Dr. this time, because our practice has several and they rotate you through so you know the Dr. who will be delivering your baby.  I’m really happy with the practice so far.  They are very thorough, and knowledgable and I know that the baby and I will be in good hands come June! 
My blood pressure was once again high for me, but the Dr. said he thought it was probably just a case of  “white coat” syndrome, where you have anxiety when you see a Dr.  I’m pretty sure that it’s my nerves/anxiety about the possibility of finding out something is wrong, and not just about seeing the Dr. but I really do think that I will start to calm down soon because my belly is definitely growing, and I should be able to feel the baby move pretty soon.  Besides my blood pressure being a little high, the heartbeat was 155 which is still good, and I get to return in less than 2 weeks to see the baby and find out what we’re having!!!  I can’t wait, the suspense is killing me!  January 24th cannot come soon enough!

16.5 weeks and growing!

A friend of a friend has a baby blog, and on every update she answered a series of questions, so…Thanks Jessi, and Susan, hope you don’t mind me borrowing your idea!

How far along?  16 weeks 5 days today!

Total Weight Gain: 6 lbs from first appointment

Symptoms?  Pretty frequent headaches, and some lower back aches

Maternity Clothes?  I can still wear one pair of pre-pregnancy jeans, (but they’re not nearly as comfortable as my maternity jeans) and several of my shirts, but I have purchased a few maternity shirts as well.

Food Cravings of the week? Mandarin oranges, cheese, salty and tart things

Sleep? Pretty well since my last appointment.  Loving my pregnancy pillow : )

Best Moment this week?  Hearing the baby’s heartbeat again.

Movement? Not too sure, little things here and there but nothing consistent or obvious.

Belly Button?  Innie

What I miss? My flat stomach

What I am looking forward to?  Finding out what we’re having 1 week from tomorrow!

Weekly Wisdom  If you’re in between clothes just break down and buy a few maternity things.  It’s worth it

Milestones?  16 weeks and everyone is doing great!

Christmas and the Big Announcement

Since having my 12 week appointment the previous week and getting out of the first trimester, my chances of having another miscarriage greatly decreased and I really got the ok from the Dr. that it was in fact “safe” to tell people. Dan and I had a White Elephant party at our house the week before Christmas and we had a really nice time. We had about 30 friends over and we were finally able to tell everyone that we were in fact expecting! Some people already knew, some had their suspicions, and some had no idea at all so it was very exciting, and everyone was really happy for us!

Friends!!
Santa Dan and I at our party!
The following week we headed up to Ohio with the dogs to spend Christmas at my parents house and I decided that it was time to share our news with everyone. I was pretty much bursting at the seams, and I had been finding out that more and more of my friends were pregnant and some were having their babies that I just wanted to be able to talk about it with everyone. So I made the Big Announcement to the facebook world on Christmas Eve and it felt so good to have it out there. Now I could talk to friends, and ask questions, and be excited with everyone I knew!
                    megaphone                               

Christmas Eve was spent with my family and some very good family friends of ours in Madison. We had our traditional fondue, baked potatoes, salad, and bread with lots of yummy desserts and Midnight Mass to top it all off. I was exhausted by the time we got home and I slept like a baby.

My Family : )

Christmas morning we opened presents at my parents house and then headed out to Mayfield to spend some time with Dan’s family at his Grandma’s place, and then had Christmas Dinner back at my parents house. It was a busy day and I was struggling towards the end of the night but it was totally worth it : )
The following day, Dan braved the cold and snow at the Brown’s tailgate with my brother and Dad and some friends, and I relaxed before heading out to my Aunt Martha’s house for the Extended Brunner Family party. It’s always so nice to see my Aunt’s and Uncle’s and Cousins, and unfortunately for some of them, it’s the only time I get to see them in a year. I had wonderful news to share with everyone and it was great to get to talk with everyone about our Baby! It’s amazing to have such a big support system and to know how loved we are, and sometimes I forget how blessed we really are. This is going to be the most loved and spoiled baby that every walked the face of the earth : )

                                        

We headed back to NC on Monday and flew to Pensacola on Tuesday to spend some time at Dan’s parents house and have our Christmas there. We shopped and ate and relaxed for 4 days and it was exactly what we needed after the hustle and bustle of the holidays. Dan and I walked to beach a few times, we watched movies, and we just spent time with his parents. Definitely a great way to end our break. So…although it was a very busy Christmas/New Years, it was worth every minute!

4th Dr.’s Appointment

I had my 12 week appointment at my Dr.’s office on Monday December 13th.  Dan was in Vail on a ski trip so I went alone but since it was only 3 days after my fantastic ultrasound, I had no worries that everything would be just fine.  It was just a routine appointment, checked my weight, and my vitals (gained about 3 pounds since I found out, which is right on track) but my blood pressure was a little high for me.  I like to think that I take very good care of myself.  I eat well, and exercise and I’ve never had a blood pressure reading higher than 120/60 but it was around 130/70 so I was a little put off.  I figured it was fine and even though I had just seen the baby a few days before, my nerves still got the best of me.  After the nurse took my vitals she used the doppler device to listen to the baby’s heart beat and it was 158, another normal reading.  As soon as I heard that heart beat I felt my entire body relax, my heart stopped pounding and I’m sure my blood pressure went down.  The Dr. did her exam and told me that she could feel the top of my uterus low in my belly which was exactly where it should be! 

12 weeks pregnant and my little baby bump!

I was scheduled to come back in 4 weeks for my 16 week appointment, and then 2 weeks later for our anatomy ultrasound to find out the sex!!!!!!





Third Doctor’s appointment

On December 10th, Dan and I went down to the city to have another ultrasound done, and I was a ball of nerves once again.  At this point I was 11 weeks 2 days and I was excited to see the baby, but worried that the same thing that happened during my last pregnancy may happen again.  I was feeling a little more symptomatic this pregnancy, I was very hungry and having a bit of nausea.  I felt like I was always tired and I had had a bit of a stretching feeling in my lower abdoman (which they say are your ligamants stretching to accomodate your growing uterus) so I felt like everything was going well, but I just didn’t know, and I was getting anxiety which was not healthy for me or for the baby.  Dan, once again, was my rock, and assured me time and again that I was fine and always reminded me to think positively.  I don’t know what I would do without him, and I am grateful every day for him and his optimistic outlook on life.  He sat next to me in the ultrasound room, held my hand and made light of everything so I would calm down and relax.  As soon as the wand was on my belly and I saw the image of our baby it was like a huge weight was lifted off of my chest, and I could breath again.  It was much bigger than last time, and actually looked like a baby and we were immediately able to see the flicker of the heart and hear it beating 168 bpm, fast and strong.  We promised our Mom’s that we would text them as soon as we had any news so Dan was on that right away, and everyone was happy!

It was amazing to see the head and the body, and the arms and legs moving all over the place (Definitely its’ fathers child, can’t sit still ) Everytime the ultrasound tech would try to take a picture the baby would make a jerky movement and kind of blur the image so we got a lot of pictures.  The Dr. came in checked me again and the baby had flipped to the other side!  It was the neatest thing!! He also confirmed that everything looked great and that the baby was developing exactly as it should be. 
Another huge sigh of relief, and getting more and more excited and less and less nervous!!

2nd Ultrasound

After 2 painfully long weeks of waiting, we had our second ultrasound appointment to make sure we were progressing as we should be.  The appointment was on November 15th, Dan’s birthday, and we was at the appointment with me so he was able to calm my nerves a little bit before hand, but seeing and hearing the baby’s heartbeat was what really did it for me!  We could see our tiny little baby and the even tinier flicker of it’s heart beating and it was the best thing in the world!  The ultrasound tech clarified that we were in fact right on target with our estimated due date, (not like the last appointment where I was measureing small) and the baby was measuring just over 7 weeks.  All babies grow at different paces, so we were relieved at the news  and I was able to let myself get a little more excited!  Below is a photo, a little dark and kind of hard to decipher, but that little whitish blob looking thing is the baby : )

My next appointment was scheduled for December 10th where we would get to see our little baby once again! 

We’re Pregnant!!

                                                       

Every fall, I like to make the drive up to Ohio to spend some time with my parents and to see the beautiful fall colors that just aren’t the same in North Carolina.  This year, Dan was unable to come with me due to his travel schedule, but I packed up the dogs and myself and set off for my drive.  It was a very peaceful and pretty drive through the mountains and it was great to see my family and some of my friends. 

I was actually out with some friends on the Friday night that I got into town and received news from one of them that she and her husband were expecting!  I was so excited for them, and now that I had two close friends who were expecting, I was even more anxious to have our own little peanut.

                                                                  happy infant

                                                               
I went to bed that evening knowing that there was a chance I could be pregnant too, so I decided to take a test the following morning, and what do you know, it read in very clear letters “pregnant”  I was excited, and nervous, and unsure that the test was actually right all at the same time, but I immediately called Dan and told him the news.  I think he felt the same way I did, so after telling my Mom and talking to her a little bit about it, we got another test and again, it was positive!  I was beyond excited but still very nervous, and didn’t want to get my hopes up in case this was like the last. 
We ended up having a wonderful weekend, and I headed back home to be excited with Dan, talk with the Doctor’s, and let it all settle in.

About a week and a half later we had our first Doctor’s appointment, to confirm the pregnancy.  By due date calculations we should have been about 6 weeks pregnant, which is a little early for a first appointment, but the Doctor’s knew my history and wanted to do an early ultrasound to check things out.  I was a nervous mess going into the first appointment, and I felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest.  The gestational sac in the ultrasound revealed that we were in fact pregnant but we were “expecting” to be about 6 weeks pregnant and were only measuring about 4 weeks 6 days, so there went my nerves again.  We talked to the nurse practioner and decided that we should come back in 2 weeks for a follow up ultrasound to make sure things were progressing the way they should be. 
So we let the waiting begin…

Back to the Beginning!

Since I am already 16 weeks along, I kind of have a lot to update you about, so bear with me and my lengthy post as I do my best to fill you in.  I promise this will be the longest one I post : )

Dan and I got married on September 9th, 2009, and throughout my life I have always known 2 things. I wanted to be a wife and a Mom, and I couldn’t wait to be either. I joked during my wedding planning and chalk up the short engagement period of not even 7 months to the fact that I had been with Dan for going on 5 years, and that I was “Born to be a Bride” We had a wedding that was perfect in my eyes, and the only thing I wish I would have done differently was to have more “formal” pictures of Dan and I.  We had a beautiful venue, great weather, and we were surrounded by all of our family and friends. It was truly my dream come true, and I couldn’t be happier with it!

After being married for about 4 months (Not wasting any time I know) we decided that were ready, if it was in the cards, to become parents. I’d be lying if I told you I knew it would happen as quickly as it did, so it was definitely a surprise when we found out on March 6th of 2009 that we were in fact pregnant. It just so happened that my parents were in town for the weekend when we found out so we got to share our surprise with them. And what a surprise it was! I’ll never forget the giant grin on my Dad’s face or the “Wow” and the shocked (and a little bit nervous look) we got from my Mom.  I couldn’t wait to share the news with everyone but I was trying to be smart about it, in case something were to happen. 

About 3 weeks later, we had our first ultrasound and saw and heard our baby and it’s little heart beat.  It was the most amazing thing I’d ever experienced, and I was just full of so many different emotions I hardly knew what to do with them all. We were going to be parents, and we got the 95% chance from the Dr. that everything would be ok, and that if we chose to, we could tell people. So we did, on facebook and everything!  If I’d only known then what I know now, I would have waited.  But hind sight is always 20/20 right?

My pregnancy seemed to be progressing fine; I had very little symptoms, no nausea or morning sickness, just hungry, tired, and using the bathroom more frequently, but this was my first pregnancy so I didn’t really know what to expect.  I had read the books, and talked to some friends who were sick and some who weren’t at all so I was thinking I was just going to be one of the lucky ones who sailed through my pregnancy with no morning sickness.  Yahoo!!!  I went on leading my normal life, and doing the things I usually do, minus the drinking and eating deli meat, and sushi, and even ran a 5K with Dan in early April.  I thought everything was just fine with the baby and I was getting more and more excited by the day to see our little baby again! 

My second appointment was scheduled for April 26th, and I couldn’t wait, but started to get a little nervous at the same time.  I knew Dan wasn’t going to be able to make this one with me because of his travel schedule, but I told him it was fine and he left that morning to do his thing.  I opted to do a few additional tests on the baby to check for any abnormalities, and this particular appointment was to check for the chances that the baby may have down syndrome.  It was a simple ultrasound with just a measurement of the fluid at the back of the neck, so not invasive at all, and it would give me a chance to see the baby again! I went in at about 11 and a half weeks for the ultrasound and the picture showed a baby that looked a little bigger than before, but there was no heartbeat.  The ultrasound tech asked me how far I should be (11.5 weeks), and then told me I was only measuring about 9.5 weeks and that she couldn’t pick up a heartbeat, and that she was sorry but I had lost the baby.  I was shocked at first then quickly devastated, and full of questions.  Did I do something?  Was it the cleaning products I used?  Was it the 5K I ran? Was it one of my students jumping on my lap at school? How could I not have know??  It was one of the worst feelings in my life.  How could I go from being fine and more excited than I had ever been to completely heartbroken, and more upset than I’d ever been???  It was awful, and I was alone.  Dan had left that morning and wasn’t due back for a few days.  I called him and couldn’t reach him, texted him and had no response because he was in a meeting, and all I wanted was for him to be there and tell me everything was going to be ok.  Thank Goodness when I called my Mom I was able to get a hold of her.  But she felt awful because there was nothing she could do.  I heard from Dan shortly after while waiting for the Dr. and he assured me he would be on the first flight home. I finally got to talk to the Dr and she cleared up several questions I had and assured me that it was usually nothing you did or didn’t do, it was a chromosomal abnormality and the fetus knew it wouldn’t be able to survive the pregnancy and end up healthy so it was my bodies way of taking care of things.  She also informed me that it was much more common than anyone knows; as little as 1 in 4 first pregnancies end in miscarriage, and she was sure I would be pregnant again in a few months.  I had a hard time believing that, but I took what she said and hoped for the best.

I had what is called a “missed miscarriage” which basically means I miscarried but my body hadn’t given me the signs of it yet.  I had no cramping (that I could remember) and no bleeding, so rather than waiting for my body to do it’s thing, I opted to have a D&E, (I had a wedding to be in that weekend)  D&E stands for Dilation and Evacuation.  It is an outpatient surgery where the Dr physically goes in and clears out your uterus so your body can heal and regulate itself more quickly.  The surgery was scheduled for 2 days later and that was that.  The actual physical part of it wasn’t bad, but the psychological part of it took a toll on me.
I went on to be in one of my best friends weddings in Ohio that weekend, and did my best to put on a happy face.  I did pretty well except for when family friends and acquaintences came up to me to Congratulate me on the pregnancy, and I had to say “Thanks, but I actually lost the baby”  Then I would get sad and the people who asked me would feel bad, and it was just a mess. 
On another note, the Wedding was beautiful and so much fun, and I’m so glad I got to be a part of it!

Immediately after I’d lost the baby, there were pregnant people and babies everywhere, (Dan always says, “What you focus on Expands,” and he was so right). It was difficult and I hate to admit it, buy my heart would hurt everytime I would see a pregnant woman or a small baby; I would be jealous, or angry and then mad at myself for feeling that way.   My emotions definitely got the best of me over the next few months and they took a toll on Dan as well.  Bless his heart, he was such a trooper, and always trying to get me to look at the positives.  Another reason why I love him so much : )

It took my body about 7 weeks to get back to normal, but the minute we got the OK from the Dr. to go ahead and start trying again, the stress of “trying to get pregnant” set in.  I never really understood how stressful it can be, but it was.  I was monitoring my body’s every move.  I tracked my basal body temperature, and took ovulation tests and  made sure we were getting down to business every time I got the little smiley face on the stick.  It was exhausting, and it took the fun out of being intimate, and made it feel like a chore sometimes but I wanted a baby so badly that I dealt with it. 

We had an extremely busy summer with weddings, and trips, and visitors, and I can honestly say that it was unforgettable, and so much fun, but I had babies on the brain the whole time.  I would start to get my hopes up and then towards the end of the month we would find out again that we were NOT pregnant.  It was very disheartening and I started to wonder if there was something wrong with me and the stress would start all over again.  I monitored and tested for the next 3 months with no luck. 

For our one year anniversary Dan and I decided to finally take a vacation for ourselves out to wine country, and we had a great time!  We tasted and bought lots of good wine, and met some pretty entertaining people.  It was the first time I felt I was able to truly enjoy myself and my husband in months.  I’ll never forget it, and we have since made it a goal to take one vacation every year from here on out with just the two of us, and I will look forward to that forever.
When we came back, we found out that our very good friends Nate and Susan were pregnant, and I felt sad again, but not as sad as I had the previous months.  I was actually more excited than sad because I was happy for them and I just had a feeling that October may be our month.  We had our last wedding of the season in early October, and again we had a great time.  We let loose and we enjoyed ourselves and wouldn’t you guess that 3 weeks after that we found out that we were again Pregnant : )

I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and though it took some time to finally feel like that statement was true about our miscarriage, it makes more and more sense every day.  It just wasn’t our time, we had lots to do before our lives would in fact change forever.

So…here we are, just over 10 months after all this baby stuff started, happily 16 weeks pregnant and finally feeling more excited than anxious. 2011 is going to be a great year!